As I sat all alone and tightly closed my eyes
I began to sort through the truth and the lies
Questions and queries were crowding my mind
In search of the answers I hoped I would find.

A joyful life and happiness
Just where does this fit in this emptiness?
Can comfort and joy and peacefulness reign
Among these bruises and sorrowful pain?

Just who am I, and how do I know
My purpose in life in this valley so low?
With limits and boundaries holding me tight
Imprisoned in fear as dark as the night.

Too weak to move forward, too frightened to stay
Too tired to laugh, too fragile to play
Too powerless to act, too scattered to think
Too burdened to float, too weightless to sink.

What happened to love, does it even exist
Among this life of danger and risk?
Do I spend my whole life pleading for love
From a mysterious Being high up above?

Who will I hurt if I leave this fiery hell?
And how do I know I'll become healthy and well?
There are no answers, there's no place to go
No solace nor rescue from this deep dark hole.

The night is so dark, the silence is still
Lay down and sleep, begin climbing the hill
I just can't go on; can't do anymore
Let this tired body cease, let the spirit soar.

But then what will happen to the lives of my three?
Do I leave them behind while I become free?
Who will love them and nurture them and hold them tight
When the vile and filth appears in the night?

And in their darkness without strong loving light
Who will lead them and guide them and give them sight?
The love that I longed for was not there for me
So do I leave them wandering, my beautiful three
in the dark, dark night?

~ StinaLisa ~
©Copyright 1976

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"Then The Light"

There is absolutely nothing that anyone can do, male or female, to warrant or deserve any kind of mental, emotional, verbal or physical abuse. Trying to become a better wife, a better husband, or a better partner will not help your situation. The abusive violator is someone who needs help, and the victim is not responsible for these actions.

If you fit into either of these categories, please check the web site listed below, or contact your local community services. There is help available for everyone. Please do not wait until permanent or long-lasting damage is done.

~ StinaLisa ~

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